Sunday, August 20, 2006

.....2 Steps back

It seems like we're living like this. 1 step forward and then 2 steps back.

Weldon and I spent 3 1/2 hours at the Psychologists office this past week. We had our Psych Evaluation as mandated by CPS.

I h0pe none of you ever have to go through this process. It's 3 1/2 hours of psychological tests designed to ferret out any mental illness or psychotic impulses you may have. You spend the entire time taking multiple choice exams which ask you everything from would you like to work at a florist to do you believe that life would be better without law enforcement. They ask questions about everything in your life and how you feel about these things. Then of course you have to speak to the psychologists and anything you say to them is NOT confidential. I repeat anything and everything you say or do is not confidential. They will be giving all of this information over to CPS and the state and anyone associated with the charges brought against you who asks. So your whole life basically is broadcast for the entire State of Texas, if they ask.

It's humiliating and depressing. We weren't depressed before we got there. We certainly were depressed after we were finished. We were able to guess that they might be trying to build a case against Weldon since fathers are statistically the ones who injure their children. They really are trying to break us and get one of us to say that the other person did it. It makes me sick to think that these people are going to try and use me and my interviews against my family. That they are going to twist our answers to fit their needs.

I'm probably just being paranoid but I doubt it. Nothing these people have done has shown us that they care about us, our kids or the situation. We're just a nuissance to them. They certainly haven't come out to check on the kids.

It's been 2 weeks since we've had any contact from CPS. They don't return our calls. We saw the investigating CPS counselor at the hospital. The only time he came to the house was to take our kids and to tell us that they had closed the case and determined that we caused Sebastian's injuries by shaking him. They haven't checked on the kids. They really don't seem to terribly concerned with the stress that it's putting all of them under. They haven't made any visits to see how we live. Nothing. They only contact us when they want something.

Yes, I'm angry and annoyed and bitter. I'm tired of jumping through hoops for these people only to be ignored. This nightmare can't end soon enough for us but somehow I don't think they are done knocking us around. Once the system gets a hold of you, they want to drag you around and beat you up as much as possible before they are forced to leave you alone. I doubt that we will ever be left alone by these people.

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