Nomad Life Continues

We had our first visit with the potential New CPS counselor for our case. The initial review/investigation of our situation has been completed. They have determined that some kind of Non-Accidental Trauma was inflicted on Sebastian. This is based on the doctor's report. They have closed out this part of the investigation and are now hopefully going to recommend that our case be handed over to the Home Safety Department. At least that's what the CPS counselors were discussing. They are going to try and get the case passed over to this new counselor by Tuesday of next week. I say try to get the case turned over because the initial counselor will be going on vacation and he will need to have his supervisor attend the staff meeting and turn over the case.

I am skeptical that this will happen as smoothly as it needs to happen because this is the same supervisor that banned us from our son's hospital room and bedside. I'm still not over that. I still shake with anger and frustration whenever I think about the precious time we lost with Sebastian because these people who don't know us. Don't care to know us or care to know what kind of precautions were in place in the ICU deemed that it was in my injured son's best interest that he be left alone in an unknown place with people poking and prodding him all night long and no mom or dad there to comfort him.

If this case does get turned over as it is supposed to then we will meet again with the assigned counselor. They will then decide what kind of "services" they will make us take. They will decide if we get to come home. They will decide when we get to have our lives and our kids back.

When they asked what we wanted from CPS, we told them that we wanted to come home. We want to be with our kids. We want to be there for our kids. The counselor told us that we would need to do some things for CPS before we would be allowed back with the kids. They have asked that Weldon and I undergo psych. evaluations and then based on the results of these evaluations they will determine how long the process will take and what kinds of "services" we will need to take. I'm hoping that after the psych. evaluations they will realize that we didn't do this to Sebastian and that we aren't a threat to our kids and we'll get to come home.

It doesn't seem to matter to them that I'm still breastfeeding the twins. Or that Austin still wakes up in the middle of the night looking for his Mama and Daddy. They don't seem to be concerned that the twins aren't sleeping through the night because they are looking for some comfort from Mama. The nights are hardest on all of us. The grandparents are doing a great job but they aren't a substitute for Mama and Daddy. And of course the grandparents aren't getting a lot of sleep because they have to handle all 3 kids by themselves at night. No one at CPS seems to care about them either.

So for now we are still not allowed to be with the kids. We still can't sleep in our own house. For now we will continue to rely on the kindness of our friends and neighbors. For now we will continue to sneak out of the house at night after the kids go to bed and sneak back in before the kids wake up in the morning.